emotion on/off

right now i wish it was as simple as switching off a light to turn off my emotions. This week has been horrific on so many levels, i would say i can't wait for the week to be over but it doesn't seem like im going to be feeling any better after the week ends. I just want the phone to go and to know right away who it would be, have you sing random songs down the phone, talk about a load of shite, make me need a fag because your having one and to hear you do that impression you do very best that makes me cry with laughter. Thats not going to happen because it seems like i've lost you too. i would love to find someone who would stick around because this feeling on top of everything else is seriously killing me!